Hi Glorian,
About 10 years ago I had a bad experience using THC and a legal herb called Holy Basil during a very dark time in my life. Accompanied by pornography, poor relationships, and online dating I was not practicing the best behaviors. After this experience occurred, I developed a chronic dissociative state with strange migraines, gloomy anxiety accompanied by severe vivid nightmares occurring every night, sensitivity to noise and light, and an overall change in my stress response. I had a history of panic attacks and anxiety before this but this experience was somehow different and continues to linger on today affecting my everyday life. Before this, I was generally light-hearted and goal-oriented and was able to take on daily tasks without any issues.
Our current field of psychology does not understand or treat dissociation well. Mystified by this experience, I began searching for a spiritual approach to the matter. I was recently reading one of your lectures titled "Sexual Transmutation, Alchemy, and Tantra" where it mentioned that it is possible to "awaken inside your ego" which is like awakening "inside of hell." Somehow I feel that this may be what I have been experiencing for about 10 years since the incident occurred. I wonder if it is possible to get out of this dark place, how this can be achieved, and if there is a more spiritual interpretation of this.
Thank you all,
and I appreciate the work you all do.
About 10 years ago I had a bad experience using THC and a legal herb called Holy Basil during a very dark time in my life. Accompanied by pornography, poor relationships, and online dating I was not practicing the best behaviors. After this experience occurred, I developed a chronic dissociative state with strange migraines, gloomy anxiety accompanied by severe vivid nightmares occurring every night, sensitivity to noise and light, and an overall change in my stress response. I had a history of panic attacks and anxiety before this but this experience was somehow different and continues to linger on today affecting my everyday life. Before this, I was generally light-hearted and goal-oriented and was able to take on daily tasks without any issues.
Our current field of psychology does not understand or treat dissociation well. Mystified by this experience, I began searching for a spiritual approach to the matter. I was recently reading one of your lectures titled "Sexual Transmutation, Alchemy, and Tantra" where it mentioned that it is possible to "awaken inside your ego" which is like awakening "inside of hell." Somehow I feel that this may be what I have been experiencing for about 10 years since the incident occurred. I wonder if it is possible to get out of this dark place, how this can be achieved, and if there is a more spiritual interpretation of this.
Thank you all,
and I appreciate the work you all do.
Accepted Answer
Change is possible if we are willing to confront, comprehend, and eliminate the ego in meditation, daily.
To heal yourself, practice the sacred rites for rejuvenation daily.
https://glorian.org/books/sacred-rites-for-rejuvenation
https://glorian.org/books/the-revolution-of-the-dialectic
To heal yourself, practice the sacred rites for rejuvenation daily.
https://glorian.org/books/sacred-rites-for-rejuvenation
https://glorian.org/books/the-revolution-of-the-dialectic
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
Accepted Answer
Change is possible if we are willing to confront, comprehend, and eliminate the ego in meditation, daily.
To heal yourself, practice the sacred rites for rejuvenation daily.
https://glorian.org/books/sacred-rites-for-rejuvenation
https://glorian.org/books/the-revolution-of-the-dialectic
To heal yourself, practice the sacred rites for rejuvenation daily.
https://glorian.org/books/sacred-rites-for-rejuvenation
https://glorian.org/books/the-revolution-of-the-dialectic
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
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