Alright, serious post time.
As I am stating here, I attended a karate school here in Lexington, KY, for the past ten years off and on. I got my brown sash/black belt about 4 years ago, and was really satisfied with my efforts. When I first began attendance, I was 20 years old, and it was really my intentions to study tai chi, and see if, with time, I could study under one of the teachers there. I didnt have enough money at the time for tuition, I didnt have income and was still living with my mom at the time. After about a year, I got my first belt/sash, and was a yellow sash. At this time there were around 20+ people attending the internal system classes they offered. Tuition was about 150 dollars a month and I really had to cut corners every month to make the payments on my low fixed income. I began having some really serious remarks from the long term "senior students", long term students and disciples of the Headmaster, Grandmaster Sin Thé. They made several remarks that I wasnt ready for the kind of commitment they said that I needed to make it, and began making statements to each other in front of me, and in private it is suggested, about me not being right in my head mentally to make progress, and that it just wasnt going to be enough for their personal expectations, in a very shallow insinuating way. In the class, from there to my green sash and current brown sash (which I recently ditched in an alleyway discreetly), I was hazed, over and over again, with refusal to teach me and present/open avoidance, on days that I was really heavily occupied, in discipline/prepared mentally and physically, at least several dozen classes over a 3-4 year period, from 2017-2021. I also during this time, had personal statements made against me by 2 or 3 other students, who left the classes after this of their own decision. About this time, Covid 19 began to hit and I only came back to visit, to see what the status of this was taking, preselectively and periodically. By then, and at the time of the first period of training, appx 2014-2016, many of their members became very distant (even more so) and left the company of their "private members only- club", attendance sharply falling to a severely minimal membership, and about this time, severe circumstances began to crop up. Dale Leonard, wife of the owner and head master, was killed in a devastating car wreck. There were also serious health complications/serious fatal illness with the head of the organization, Master Sin Thé. It also caused severe complications for their internal ranking/internal system of accountability, and much of their personal faith in their system was shaken eternally. Due to my financial situation and some personal conflicts I had with family stress, mental health concerns (I needed to take time to recover myself) and personal judgement I felt within my own immediate family, I had very much decided to take this as even-more-slowly-than--possible-as-possible. I had already received attacks of a psychic nature, in my sleep, spiritual attacks, against my own health, relationships (fights and conflict, family and social), as well as on my life in spiritual scenarios where I faced uncalled for rejection and backlash unrelated and unprovoked from other spiritual avenues/spiritual authorities, I had been seeking as a backup plan/alternatives that I went to, thinking I could seek them as a resource for help. Less than a year ago, the head of the school died of an aneurysm, and I went to the funeral. I shaved my head, and went in uniform, respectfully. Several of the members who were not long term personally students/disciples of the teachers there, also became very, in my eyes I say this, hostile, when I saw them there and I felt a deeper sense of dishonor there, residually from the earlier years. After Covid, and during when I attended small periods, inconsistently, due to the inner resentment, I actually myself received numerous personal comments of a threatening nature from students who felt, I would imagine, resentment from me not offering them personal respect they felt they deserved/were owed. I either walked out wordlessly, or just gave them a personal statement of personal affirmation to suit their own ego's. After a 6 month time period after the funeral, they changed the opening hours of the school from 4 pm to 5:30 pm, as an effort to curb interference of efforts to undermine their iron grip on membership and participation.
As of 1 week ago, I went to the class and was stopped at the door, at about 5 pm, by a senior member. He said, I was told, you were not to be allowed to go in there, under any circumstances. I said "why??!" And he said "I dont know. I was just Told, nothing else." And I said very worried, "WHY? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG?" He said "I dont know, thats just what I was told." And I asked why and he said "we talked it over and there was mentioned something about some threats?" And I replied "that was over 5 years ago (a statement I made at the time, a warning and observation to the student who was forcing/pushing me, both in class and privately), and THEY WERE NOT THREATS!" He did not reply. I asked again, "What did Grandmaster Sin say about it?" He could not tell me a word because he did not know anything about it.
I resolved this later (they unplugged the phone so I could not call back), the next day, very open non-vindicating statements, and they did not provide any personal information, over Facebook, or details, and did not offer, in fact actually withheld, what this situation was specifically being caused by. No information provided. Just said to leave, and that they "looked forward to seeing me make progress."
I went back to talk to my tai chi teacher, (who I believe has done this to vindicate himself from the vast downfall that this behavior caused for their entire system/school, due to me making a private statement via email to another school, over the hazing which was prolonged, subtle, unrequited, and completely personally an attack on my mind, human potential, free will and my spirituality), today, privately and waited for 10 mins out by the back entrance to ask him -personally- what details were being instituted to know what officially needed to be done to clear myself of their charges, or what needed to be done on my part. HE WOULDNT EVEN GIVE ME A BASIC 5 MINUTE CONVERSATION TO LET ME KNOW, AFTER ALMOST 11 YEARS OF STUDY.
I am writing this to let anyone who reads this, know that this was perpetuated on me out of personal greed, pride, and shame, if not more personal spiritual problems, by a number of people involved with the Shaolin-Do karate "school system," under the Authority of 10th Deg. GRANDMASTER SIN KWANG THÉ. This was done in secrecy and doubledealing and deception, under unspoken lineage dissemination via the Shaolin lineage inherited by Said, Sin Kwang Thé.
I have no dishonor, negative emotions, disrespect, ill will, or, unintended Or intentional, resentment or neglect or etc etc Shameful Behavior in any way shape or form toward Gm. Sin Thé, this Highly Accomplished Master of Shaolin Martial Arts (and Meditation.)
I am writing this to act as a spiritual message toward the uninformed, that in the famous maxim of (esoteric) spirituality, both of these statements:
"Crime hides in the incense of prayer," and the proverbial gnostic maxim together with the former, "Many spiritual schools are full of profanity." Inside they are full of pride, malice, Shame/Shaming, and Black Magic, seeking to pervert and corrupt the innocence of the unwary and sincere, for their own nefarious purposes.
I warn all who seek to enter the absolute path, the true path, to spirituality, seek elsewhere, and beware those who are associated with, formerly or currently with this system, as it is only a simple facade to steal peoples money, divert their spiritual efforts, and waste as much of their precious time as they humanly possibly can.
I also am writing this publicly, to assert that I at this time Am Still All There, I am still my true self, and that I have zero further intentions of pursuing this line of study. I advise the same for anyone else, and to pray for those who do as well.
Thank you for reading this. Namaste.
What do you admins and mods think of this? I am writing to confer with the spiritual authorities here. I have a decent familiarity with gnosis, occultism, esoteric religion, as well as cultism found rampant online in fbk groups and other disreputable avenues of what amounts to black tantra. I condemn these practices in my personal views on spiritual practices and do not harbor the sympathy for those who admire them. I have been through a lot of negativity, and just want to ask, what would be the condoned, acceptable method to approach this, personally, to make progress internally. I have had damage to my mental body due to PTSD from damily abuse and I take medications for mental health. If this relates to the bamboo reed, in a very ancient traditional sense, could someone please look into my situation for assistance so I know esoterically the path to take for dealing with this in my private life, or if I should just take it as a personal lesson. I had been attacked by other parties interfering in my life with black magic as well, creating health problems and blockages to my inner master. In the bamboo reed chapter this is mentioned as I think a doorstop in the legacy of the doctrine layed out by VM Samael Aun Weor, and so I need a healthy helping of life advice, spiritual or secular. I do not have support from local churches, but I think I can gain some in due time. How do you think I should proceed, to minimize the collateral damage, and also, any personal experience you provide will be remembered. I will respond (with godspeed) in a timely manner, and use discretion, thanks in advance.
As I am stating here, I attended a karate school here in Lexington, KY, for the past ten years off and on. I got my brown sash/black belt about 4 years ago, and was really satisfied with my efforts. When I first began attendance, I was 20 years old, and it was really my intentions to study tai chi, and see if, with time, I could study under one of the teachers there. I didnt have enough money at the time for tuition, I didnt have income and was still living with my mom at the time. After about a year, I got my first belt/sash, and was a yellow sash. At this time there were around 20+ people attending the internal system classes they offered. Tuition was about 150 dollars a month and I really had to cut corners every month to make the payments on my low fixed income. I began having some really serious remarks from the long term "senior students", long term students and disciples of the Headmaster, Grandmaster Sin Thé. They made several remarks that I wasnt ready for the kind of commitment they said that I needed to make it, and began making statements to each other in front of me, and in private it is suggested, about me not being right in my head mentally to make progress, and that it just wasnt going to be enough for their personal expectations, in a very shallow insinuating way. In the class, from there to my green sash and current brown sash (which I recently ditched in an alleyway discreetly), I was hazed, over and over again, with refusal to teach me and present/open avoidance, on days that I was really heavily occupied, in discipline/prepared mentally and physically, at least several dozen classes over a 3-4 year period, from 2017-2021. I also during this time, had personal statements made against me by 2 or 3 other students, who left the classes after this of their own decision. About this time, Covid 19 began to hit and I only came back to visit, to see what the status of this was taking, preselectively and periodically. By then, and at the time of the first period of training, appx 2014-2016, many of their members became very distant (even more so) and left the company of their "private members only- club", attendance sharply falling to a severely minimal membership, and about this time, severe circumstances began to crop up. Dale Leonard, wife of the owner and head master, was killed in a devastating car wreck. There were also serious health complications/serious fatal illness with the head of the organization, Master Sin Thé. It also caused severe complications for their internal ranking/internal system of accountability, and much of their personal faith in their system was shaken eternally. Due to my financial situation and some personal conflicts I had with family stress, mental health concerns (I needed to take time to recover myself) and personal judgement I felt within my own immediate family, I had very much decided to take this as even-more-slowly-than--possible-as-possible. I had already received attacks of a psychic nature, in my sleep, spiritual attacks, against my own health, relationships (fights and conflict, family and social), as well as on my life in spiritual scenarios where I faced uncalled for rejection and backlash unrelated and unprovoked from other spiritual avenues/spiritual authorities, I had been seeking as a backup plan/alternatives that I went to, thinking I could seek them as a resource for help. Less than a year ago, the head of the school died of an aneurysm, and I went to the funeral. I shaved my head, and went in uniform, respectfully. Several of the members who were not long term personally students/disciples of the teachers there, also became very, in my eyes I say this, hostile, when I saw them there and I felt a deeper sense of dishonor there, residually from the earlier years. After Covid, and during when I attended small periods, inconsistently, due to the inner resentment, I actually myself received numerous personal comments of a threatening nature from students who felt, I would imagine, resentment from me not offering them personal respect they felt they deserved/were owed. I either walked out wordlessly, or just gave them a personal statement of personal affirmation to suit their own ego's. After a 6 month time period after the funeral, they changed the opening hours of the school from 4 pm to 5:30 pm, as an effort to curb interference of efforts to undermine their iron grip on membership and participation.
As of 1 week ago, I went to the class and was stopped at the door, at about 5 pm, by a senior member. He said, I was told, you were not to be allowed to go in there, under any circumstances. I said "why??!" And he said "I dont know. I was just Told, nothing else." And I said very worried, "WHY? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG?" He said "I dont know, thats just what I was told." And I asked why and he said "we talked it over and there was mentioned something about some threats?" And I replied "that was over 5 years ago (a statement I made at the time, a warning and observation to the student who was forcing/pushing me, both in class and privately), and THEY WERE NOT THREATS!" He did not reply. I asked again, "What did Grandmaster Sin say about it?" He could not tell me a word because he did not know anything about it.
I resolved this later (they unplugged the phone so I could not call back), the next day, very open non-vindicating statements, and they did not provide any personal information, over Facebook, or details, and did not offer, in fact actually withheld, what this situation was specifically being caused by. No information provided. Just said to leave, and that they "looked forward to seeing me make progress."
I went back to talk to my tai chi teacher, (who I believe has done this to vindicate himself from the vast downfall that this behavior caused for their entire system/school, due to me making a private statement via email to another school, over the hazing which was prolonged, subtle, unrequited, and completely personally an attack on my mind, human potential, free will and my spirituality), today, privately and waited for 10 mins out by the back entrance to ask him -personally- what details were being instituted to know what officially needed to be done to clear myself of their charges, or what needed to be done on my part. HE WOULDNT EVEN GIVE ME A BASIC 5 MINUTE CONVERSATION TO LET ME KNOW, AFTER ALMOST 11 YEARS OF STUDY.
I am writing this to let anyone who reads this, know that this was perpetuated on me out of personal greed, pride, and shame, if not more personal spiritual problems, by a number of people involved with the Shaolin-Do karate "school system," under the Authority of 10th Deg. GRANDMASTER SIN KWANG THÉ. This was done in secrecy and doubledealing and deception, under unspoken lineage dissemination via the Shaolin lineage inherited by Said, Sin Kwang Thé.
I have no dishonor, negative emotions, disrespect, ill will, or, unintended Or intentional, resentment or neglect or etc etc Shameful Behavior in any way shape or form toward Gm. Sin Thé, this Highly Accomplished Master of Shaolin Martial Arts (and Meditation.)
I am writing this to act as a spiritual message toward the uninformed, that in the famous maxim of (esoteric) spirituality, both of these statements:
"Crime hides in the incense of prayer," and the proverbial gnostic maxim together with the former, "Many spiritual schools are full of profanity." Inside they are full of pride, malice, Shame/Shaming, and Black Magic, seeking to pervert and corrupt the innocence of the unwary and sincere, for their own nefarious purposes.
I warn all who seek to enter the absolute path, the true path, to spirituality, seek elsewhere, and beware those who are associated with, formerly or currently with this system, as it is only a simple facade to steal peoples money, divert their spiritual efforts, and waste as much of their precious time as they humanly possibly can.
I also am writing this publicly, to assert that I at this time Am Still All There, I am still my true self, and that I have zero further intentions of pursuing this line of study. I advise the same for anyone else, and to pray for those who do as well.
Thank you for reading this. Namaste.
What do you admins and mods think of this? I am writing to confer with the spiritual authorities here. I have a decent familiarity with gnosis, occultism, esoteric religion, as well as cultism found rampant online in fbk groups and other disreputable avenues of what amounts to black tantra. I condemn these practices in my personal views on spiritual practices and do not harbor the sympathy for those who admire them. I have been through a lot of negativity, and just want to ask, what would be the condoned, acceptable method to approach this, personally, to make progress internally. I have had damage to my mental body due to PTSD from damily abuse and I take medications for mental health. If this relates to the bamboo reed, in a very ancient traditional sense, could someone please look into my situation for assistance so I know esoterically the path to take for dealing with this in my private life, or if I should just take it as a personal lesson. I had been attacked by other parties interfering in my life with black magic as well, creating health problems and blockages to my inner master. In the bamboo reed chapter this is mentioned as I think a doorstop in the legacy of the doctrine layed out by VM Samael Aun Weor, and so I need a healthy helping of life advice, spiritual or secular. I do not have support from local churches, but I think I can gain some in due time. How do you think I should proceed, to minimize the collateral damage, and also, any personal experience you provide will be remembered. I will respond (with godspeed) in a timely manner, and use discretion, thanks in advance.