First of all I gotta say thanks to the instructors for their selfless service.
My question goes as follows:
I was trying to meditate on an issue I had with porn which I had stopped for almost 2yrs but I didn't really look within in meditation even tho it was pestering me.
So as I was in meditation on the porn issue I had a bit of disturbances with the it wasn't really great at first but seemed to make progress and the sensation lessened,comprehended a bit.
Then the next 3 ones I was now about to meditate on them but I saw myself focusing on the images of the porn not me self observing three brains then realized it was the lust trying to eat itself then around yesterday in my dream I was fighting a succubus I think first time I never knew they were the ones that caused sleep paralysis,I was so paralyzed I was aware of myself when fighting them tried to feed me thoughts Icontrolled it with imagination thanks to meditation,tried to relax in the internal plane worked but got overwhelmed by the abyss in my mind first time was aware it was so dark,so painful can't believe I have lived like this.
(-)Want to ask how to face the issue with the porn or comprehending it without trying to focus on the scenes and focus on three brains? Because of identification.
(-) Also am thinking of going straight to how the orgasm was detrimental seeing the cause and effect but when do some of those scenes not of the three brains but external impressions like the images of lust of the phone are what I focus on?any advice am sure it will get better with my daily practice of meditation ?♂️
(-) Steps on how to understand the lust also will reread and meditate on the meditation essential.
(-) Fought succubus when I was still practicing that weak sexual vice but around 2 days ago that night it seemed to be overwhelming powerful Is it that when someone is on the path of change and the solar path that the evil forces within you try their very best to attack you than when you weren't
My question goes as follows:
I was trying to meditate on an issue I had with porn which I had stopped for almost 2yrs but I didn't really look within in meditation even tho it was pestering me.
So as I was in meditation on the porn issue I had a bit of disturbances with the it wasn't really great at first but seemed to make progress and the sensation lessened,comprehended a bit.
Then the next 3 ones I was now about to meditate on them but I saw myself focusing on the images of the porn not me self observing three brains then realized it was the lust trying to eat itself then around yesterday in my dream I was fighting a succubus I think first time I never knew they were the ones that caused sleep paralysis,I was so paralyzed I was aware of myself when fighting them tried to feed me thoughts Icontrolled it with imagination thanks to meditation,tried to relax in the internal plane worked but got overwhelmed by the abyss in my mind first time was aware it was so dark,so painful can't believe I have lived like this.
(-)Want to ask how to face the issue with the porn or comprehending it without trying to focus on the scenes and focus on three brains? Because of identification.
(-) Also am thinking of going straight to how the orgasm was detrimental seeing the cause and effect but when do some of those scenes not of the three brains but external impressions like the images of lust of the phone are what I focus on?any advice am sure it will get better with my daily practice of meditation ?♂️
(-) Steps on how to understand the lust also will reread and meditate on the meditation essential.
(-) Fought succubus when I was still practicing that weak sexual vice but around 2 days ago that night it seemed to be overwhelming powerful Is it that when someone is on the path of change and the solar path that the evil forces within you try their very best to attack you than when you weren't