The ascension of the Kundalini depends on the merits of the heart.
If one is driven by lust during the sexual act with a spouse, then the level of the fall will be more severe than one who unintentionally spills or orgasms. Recall that we must ‘descend’ into the ninth sphere (Yesod) with willpower that dominates the demons of the mind
Hello dear instructor,
I’d like to ask a question regarding voluntary spilling, but not out of lustfull desire.
My spouse greatly desires children and while I recognize there is egoic motivation behind that desire as well as negative karmic bonds with any children we might have, I am still determined to grant her this joy as I view the suffering I would cause her and our families would I choose not to have children.
Having children would be in the sacrifice of my desire to focus the creative force within me towards evolving my consciousness. Since she does not currently cultivate her relationship with God, conceiving through love, prayer and orgasm is not something she deems possible and would I think be willing to entertain as a valid “trying”.
Funnily enough, we tried for a year prior to me finding Gnosis and had no success, this implies to me that if it is nit Gods will, it won’t happen anyway.
Just out of theiretic curiosity however,
in such circumstances, granted there is zero lustfull desire to orgasm and the orgasm is viewed as sacrifice for someone else in a sense, would there then be the inherent descend into ego accompanied with the orgasms in addition to the blatant energy dump that the orgasm always represents?
Many thanks and God bless you.