Good day I was meditating on lust and porn (which have stopped early last year)and someone said and stated tht we should visualize the porn images to see how we suffer.
Kinda fell into identification a bit but used prayer to divine mother during meditation and mantra to help me a bit is using prayer durig the meditation of the porn images seen as obstruction
But realized now how porn made me feel it's mostly and through the orgasm, in the past I felt all kind of entities(and it fortifying pride, anger, low self esteem)now knowing how deep it was
Although prayed to divine mother for elimination(could it be that I comprehended a bit of lust and the orgasm and how it made me feel weak,lazy, prideful, and entitled)
Also want to ask again
- Is it kinda possible to not fall into identification as a beginner when meditating on lusts
- Was visualizing the scene a good decision(like how I masturbated,how it affected me,the porn scene because even tho it was heavy saw some elements I didn't want to see)
Kinda fell into identification a bit but used prayer to divine mother during meditation and mantra to help me a bit is using prayer durig the meditation of the porn images seen as obstruction
But realized now how porn made me feel it's mostly and through the orgasm, in the past I felt all kind of entities(and it fortifying pride, anger, low self esteem)now knowing how deep it was
Although prayed to divine mother for elimination(could it be that I comprehended a bit of lust and the orgasm and how it made me feel weak,lazy, prideful, and entitled)
Also want to ask again
- Is it kinda possible to not fall into identification as a beginner when meditating on lusts
- Was visualizing the scene a good decision(like how I masturbated,how it affected me,the porn scene because even tho it was heavy saw some elements I didn't want to see)