the awakening of consciousness is so interesting.

can you help explain this, when I close my eyes and act as if the blackness (of the back of my eye lids) is an actual space, and I stare into that space, sooner or later, I will see something. It is very similar, but yet different from, imagining a banana or imagining Egypt in as much living and breathing and conscious detail as possible while falling asleep. the difference when I stare at the back of my eye lids, the image that arises is not something that I consciously create, it arises on its own, often times right when I stop waiting for the image to appear than it will spontaneously appear. It is different in that sense, because when I recall something I am purposefully managing it, in this situation it arises on its own, right exactly at the time, when I stop waiting for it.

can you explain this, or point me in the direction.