As I practice these teachings, I come to realize I suffer from a mild degree of dementia due to an excessive degree of masturbation in the past, and perhaps due to a small accident I had during my birth that left me without oxygen. I had problems such as: not remembering where I put things; having no idea what to do in life; tourette-like symptoms; past events replaying in my mind, even if they are long gone. I can still function, I can still be intellectual, go to college, hold conversations and all that. But my brain feels "leaky".

Anyways, perhaps this could be the state of almost everyone nowadays, it's just that I was lucky enough to realize my condition, while the other "mentally impaired" just go around believing they're perfectly well?

Even before the 80's, Samael used to say the human brain was very degenerated... so let us imagine the condition of our brains now. I believe in the next decades we're going to see a lot of impossible craziness going on in the world, because of the progressive degradation of physical brains.