Dear Seekers and Guides of the true way, I humbly come for water on the path. I found these teachings 5 years ago at 21 and as a waterfall on my flowing river gave me the knowledge to swim! Deeply immersed in the playlists given, my life has been transformed through understanding the work with the ego and our divine mother, the ways of the law and the moment to moment communion and presence and battle. Working on my own transmutation and chastity through meditation on infinite love and working with the currents of light and centers of the body. I have been having powerful months of purity and bliss then feeling the sting of lust grow, other egos and patterns still feed off her. Daily practice keeps me relatively safe, and I soon return to the upward pathway. The Stone is our foundation of all that we are and the path relies on this, my reconciliation of this has been shown to me to be the critical understanding of this world. These teachings have given me alot and truly been the deepest gold of all my studies. My gratitude and respect is mixed with relief that you are sharing these mysteries and that I have been eased enough to find them, agradezco from the depths of my heart ♥ The flows are good to me and I have recently found myself facing a relationship after many years being single. We have shared deep love for many years as friends and now are entering an intimate bond consciously and slowly. We have not united yet but are approaching that threshold fast. I'm not worried about witholding my seed and Integrating a focused and productive mediation, but I know her lust will rear and while maintaining my own sensitive rhythm she will want to eat. In our fallen state I know it takes time for one to realize and hold true that most ancient battle against lucifer, so I want to hold compassion for her journey. We have a close friendship and she is decently spiritually orientated so I trust that with communication and time the truth of the living tree will shine through. However, im nervous and conflicted about, one: feeding her lust and two: the friction this may create in our relationship physically as well as our mental connection. I havent ever properly worked with a partner who is also circulating thier lifeforce and bliss, In peace and actually transmuting their lust. My last intimacy lasted a few months and i was able to keep my Sabaath and learnt a little, as she was very lustful. Her orgasms felt icky and betraying our Mother is a crime.
This bond is a special one and I may be able to cultivate with her and make a family, it's a potential. perhaps..
I do have faith that at true intiation of sacrament, our marriage is divinely recieved. I am not at that stage, yet in any case I would like to make this a most beneficial chapter of my soul.
Man proposes, God disposes.
Humble Teachers, how would you approach my situation?
In depth advice can be recieved.