I try to achieve an OBE for almost 9 years now.
I think that I’m a very spiritual person, for example having joined a Rosicrucian Order this year, meditating on a daily basis, reading gnostic, hermetic and enlightenment literature since years, and trying to be aware of my thoughts and „just-being“ as often as I can throughout the day.
I’m not trying to convince you that I’m a holy person and free of mistakes, but simply that I take the spiritual path very serious and see a lot of progress already (regarding my mind state and thoughts, e.g. forgiveness, no anger etc.).
The only thing that simply just doesn’t happen are Lucid Dreams and Astral Projection.
I want to use them to meet spiritual teachers, to advance on my path, but that door is closed.
Which I just don’t understand.
I remember 4-5 dreams each morning, I keep a Dream Journal, I make countless Reality Checks each day, I meditate twice each day, I make affirmations before sleep, I pray to the Holy Mother to help me getting lucid, and (during natural wake ups) make a WBTB almost every night.
I tried each and every known technique, either immediately while waking up and each time while falling asleep.
I used tools like binaural beats, I used Subliminals, I listened to guided meditations and took dream supplements.
And I also had several longer breaks and just stopped everything for weeks or even months, during those 8 years, as I know that trying too hard can get you into the way, so that things can happen as soon as you let go.
But I just don’t get lucid, and I never experienced the famous vibrational state or other sensations.
Last year, for the first time, I started with mantras: each time I fell asleep (evening and WBTB) I chanted FARAON.
And each day, during one of my two meditation sessions, I chanted (mentally) EGIPTO for a full hour.
After a little bit than more 3 months I stopped, because nothing happened.
Now, almost a year later, I restarted with these two mantras, same daily and nightly „ritual“ as described.
My questions now are:
1. Will these mantras work if I just keep on doing them (even if it takes more than 3 months)? Are they a tool that works „by itself“, just by keeping practicing it, no matter how long it takes?
2. Is it possible that the „other side“ (or my Higher Self) simply doesn’t want me to experience such things? Or might it be an explicit challenge, to test me if I keep practicing it, even if it takes 9+ years?
Thanks for any answers, insights or advice!