I hope you are doing well.
I am writing because I unfortunately was foolish and dabbled in the occult in 2016 (goetia), and it caused me to be possessed by a demon that now torments me in my head with voices. The demon is also constricting my heart for the past 12 months and preventing it from beating properly.
I have seen exorcists 3 times, but they were not able to banish the demon.
I'm desperate to banish this demon.
I have seen kundalini awakening testimonies on youtube, some of which are positive, and some of which are negative.
Some people describe negative experiences such as feeling psychotic symptoms, extreme discomfort, insomnia for 2 weeks, burning sensations, and even hearing demonic voices... some people even end up in the mental hospital forced to take medications.
Whereas others describe positive experiences where they were filled with love and bliss, and their lives were changed for the better, curing things such as depression, alcoholism, drug addiction, and other problems.
Do you think it would be a good idea for me to move to India in search of a true kundalini guru (or an enlightened yogi in a cave, for example), who might be able to banish the demon that has been possessing me since 2016? And do you think that under a true guru's supervision, a kundalini awakening could perhaps BURN OFF the demon and force it to leave me and finally be banished? I suppose my general question is this: are there any documented cases of kundalini awakenings forcing demons and other negative spirit attachments to flee and cure demonic possession?
I have heard Christian pastors describe The Holy Spirit as THE FIRE of GOD. I have also heard Rosicrucians describe GOD as a Fire. But I have also heard the kundalini being described as a fire. So I don't know what the difference is, or if they are just variations of the same fire.
Since the kundalini is a fire, do you think that if I awaken it (under the supervision of a true guru in India, or perhaps here in the west where I currently live), it might burn the demon that is possessing me and force it to leave me, and cure my demonic possession? Or do you think that a kundalini awakening might worsen the demonic possession and worsen my symptoms? (Which psychiatrists label "schizophrenia," but which I know is a real demon, because I dabbled in the occult foolishly in 2016, which is when the demonic voice started in my head).
In 2020, I was laying in bed after reading an article on glorian.org about dissolving the ego, and how "Mother Kundalini" helps us do that. And I was literally trying to enter into a mind state in which I didn't have a sense of "I/me/ego," and I asked Mother Kundalini to dissolve my ego. I then was surprised to immediately feel the kundalini start ascending up a few vertebrae of my spine. Initially, for the first 2 weeks or so, it was a good experience, because it was like feeling almost constant bliss in the first 2 or 3 vertebrae of my spine. But after 2 weeks, I felt the demon's chaotic energy literally entering the bottom of my spine and trying to break into my spine. And I fear that the thing that caused this to happen was the partial kundalini awakening, which acted as some sort of entryway the demon used to try to break into my spine, so I'm afraid that if I fully awaken my kundalini in the future, the demon might possess me even worse.
But I'm also hopeful that the opposite might happen - that if I have a kundalini awakening under the supervision of a true guru, the kundalini fire/light might actually burn the demon and force it to leave, curing my demonic possession.
What do you think? I would love to have your advice on the above question, and on any method to banish this goetia demon, since I am desperate to banish it and save my soul, and I would honestly live in a van in India in poverty in search of a guru who could help banish the demon, because I have no life, my life has been completely destroyed by demonic possession and gangstalking.
Thank you for your time and help!
(Forum Admin: Your other thread has been combined here).
I unfortunately have been demonically possessed since 2016, and I recently felt the demon possessing me pulling my shakti energy down my spine, and causing it to literally awaken negatively under my spine, in the form of the kundabuffer. I used to feel the shakti energy ascending up my spine 2 or 3 vertebrae.
But after the demon pulled down the shakti energy, I now feel it under my spine. I feel the energy descending 3 or 4 centimeters under my coccyx.
Is this a kundabuffer awakening?
Is kundabuffer awakening permanent, or is it REVERSIBLE?
Is there still hope? Would I still be able to reverse the kundabuffer awakening, pull the shakti energy back up, and awaken it properly (up the spine) and have a kundalini awakening in the future? Is this still possible?
Or is kundabuffer awakening permanent and irreversible, and will it forever prevent me from having a kundalini awakening?
If it is reversible, how would I go about reversing it, and what steps should I take to have a kundalini awakening in the future?
Thank you, glorian.org, for your help.