I'm 24 years old and never dated, kissed, had sex, etc. I am afraid of women, I feel like I don't deserve them. There are times when a woman appears to be interested in me, and I'm also interested in them, but I have no courage whatsoever to initiate some talk and show attraction. Then I have to go home heartbroken feeling like a loner. What do you have to say about this?
I'm a failure. Probably going to waste in hell after death. But I want to try to eliminate as much ego as I can before leaving this world. So, anyways... If I end up in the abyss after dying, how much time can I expect to stay there? 1000 years? 10000 years? A million?
Also, if I fall into the abyss, do you think I'll get a change of being reborn in the next Golden Age and self-realize there? Because it's very hard to become enlightened in this terribly dark Kali-Yuga.