"Spiritual development" was used in a generic sense: awakened consciousness, clean conscience, powers, relationship with Divinity, etc., not referring to Chesed. Much of this post is now moot because I am currently experiencing the vehement chest pain that now accompanies my lust, and more trouble is developing day by day.
So, while I am now experiencing the "apparent consequences of falling," I also see the masochistic cycle to "unite" with Divinity, thanks to your question.
It just took some time.