My respectful greetings to all present. I would just like to share something that has been happening to me ever since i have decided to work on sublimating my lust. I am single. I work on myself, using Bhaktiyoga. i am very much grateful to this website and all the incredible instructors who regulary are posting and lecturing in the teachings section.
Does anyone else experience this?
When the member is erect, and throbbing, and when you try to pray to the Divine Mother, to open and make the Heart receptive, you internally feel like you have a feminine heart. his heart, somehow pumps blood rythmically to the male member. At the same time, it feels as you are praying, that the heart is somehow 'calling up' the male member, viewing it like a child, an innocent infant. Thsi has a specific response within me, or breaking down the lust that initially fuelled the erection in the first place. I feel that instead of an exploitating mindset, when you request the Divine Mother to open your heart, you realise, that when you are looking at women, and say their breasts, what you are really looking for, is the heart behind just the flesh organ. Feminine, receptive heart, is what you are looking form, but in lust you forget this and just focus on the outside, trying vainly to 'enjoy' and thus fall.
So anyway, this sublimation is working for over a year for me now. I mentioned BhaktiYoga, but wont go into the details yet. I dont have nocturnal emissions, and i dont masturbate either. I used to. not anymore. There have been a couple of time that i have had Nocturnal emissions, and both the times, i realised that i was conscious in my dream, and that i was knowingly engaging in lusting. So its like the Sexual energy, it is impossible to 'fool' it. No. you cant say "oh, but i was sleeping, so its not my fault. i was not aware. how can i be in control when im unconscious?" no, all excuses of the fallen ego.
So anyway, have you all also experience a clear liquid, a drop or more, that comes out of the male member, after the lust has been sublimated? because this is something that happens everyday, because i practice my meditation everyday. If suppose for somereason i miss a day, i feel this heat and this feverish energy build up, like i am putting up a dam. So instead of resisting, what i do is, i am not going to deny that i am lusting, and if i suppress this lust is only doing to errupt in my dreams, so i need to man up and take responsibility, and work on dissolving this lust right now, so that i am not procastinating, and thereby just building up the pressure. It simply is not possible because my nature i have always been oversexed. Its only recently that i have begun to realize just how fatal eating the fruit is.
I can than Master Samael enough for this eye opening insights into what hell is really like, lol, that is great motivation to grow up and take responsibility, when you know all lust, every thought is going to be accounted for.
anyway, i am at this cybercarfe, in india. and my time is up. But just wanted to say hi. I deeply deeply appreciate this website.
Does anyone else experience this?
When the member is erect, and throbbing, and when you try to pray to the Divine Mother, to open and make the Heart receptive, you internally feel like you have a feminine heart. his heart, somehow pumps blood rythmically to the male member. At the same time, it feels as you are praying, that the heart is somehow 'calling up' the male member, viewing it like a child, an innocent infant. Thsi has a specific response within me, or breaking down the lust that initially fuelled the erection in the first place. I feel that instead of an exploitating mindset, when you request the Divine Mother to open your heart, you realise, that when you are looking at women, and say their breasts, what you are really looking for, is the heart behind just the flesh organ. Feminine, receptive heart, is what you are looking form, but in lust you forget this and just focus on the outside, trying vainly to 'enjoy' and thus fall.
So anyway, this sublimation is working for over a year for me now. I mentioned BhaktiYoga, but wont go into the details yet. I dont have nocturnal emissions, and i dont masturbate either. I used to. not anymore. There have been a couple of time that i have had Nocturnal emissions, and both the times, i realised that i was conscious in my dream, and that i was knowingly engaging in lusting. So its like the Sexual energy, it is impossible to 'fool' it. No. you cant say "oh, but i was sleeping, so its not my fault. i was not aware. how can i be in control when im unconscious?" no, all excuses of the fallen ego.
So anyway, have you all also experience a clear liquid, a drop or more, that comes out of the male member, after the lust has been sublimated? because this is something that happens everyday, because i practice my meditation everyday. If suppose for somereason i miss a day, i feel this heat and this feverish energy build up, like i am putting up a dam. So instead of resisting, what i do is, i am not going to deny that i am lusting, and if i suppress this lust is only doing to errupt in my dreams, so i need to man up and take responsibility, and work on dissolving this lust right now, so that i am not procastinating, and thereby just building up the pressure. It simply is not possible because my nature i have always been oversexed. Its only recently that i have begun to realize just how fatal eating the fruit is.
I can than Master Samael enough for this eye opening insights into what hell is really like, lol, that is great motivation to grow up and take responsibility, when you know all lust, every thought is going to be accounted for.
anyway, i am at this cybercarfe, in india. and my time is up. But just wanted to say hi. I deeply deeply appreciate this website.