So I've noticed that ever since I've enhanced my chastity to a pristine level, I've become increasingly more... afraid? In my day to day, there is an increasing feeling of anxiety and fear that I'm always going to be spiritually inadequate. You'd think this is a good thing. But the fear and anxieties I am experiencing is leaking into all areas of my life. I can't seem to focus on my studies, on my routines. I don't know what's going on.
Am I experiencing these.. 'symptoms' due to something I am doing? Because I've become a lot more chaste and meditative in recent times than in the past. Or are these symptoms happening to me due to any kind of celestial event that is currently going on?