Good day to you all,
Just so you have an idea of where I am at this moment. I have been a Christian my entire life. At times I have applied myself much more than others. At a time that I was in no way obeying God ( in fact I was deep in sin, ) I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. Since then I have become very faithful and have worked to follow Jesus commands. I feel my 3rd eye but it is not open that I can tell. I feel my crown and I see lights around the top of my head when I pray in a state of meditation. I have seen the colors moving like serpents and the spirals. Yesterday I discovered that by attempting the breathing I could feel my Testicle heat up. I also found that for the first time in a long time I could go to bed without this arousal and temptation to relieve it. I have been faithful to stay pure. Being the first day in some time that I have slept deeply I had my first Lucid Dream. It was a man who told me he was going to kill me. I woke. When I fell back to sleep at least 5 men or more where chasing myself and who I perceived as a women. I'm not sure. anyways she was helping me. She pulled me from the ice water at one point. We ended up hiding in a cabin but moments later all the men where in the cabin, we where sitting down waiting our end. then I woke again. To put some of this in perspective. In my past I had a women in my life that was into something i did not understand and was afraid to consider her request/demand. It was something about my birthday. She wanted me to somehow be one with her. At one point she even threatened me. I rejected her by praying to Jesus. Moments before my kundalini awakening I heard her in my mind. She said " I am the one you betrayed. This is your last chance. " right after this happened. I had an explosions of energy go up my spine into my mind. I felt my genitals become erect ( I had erectile disfunction. ) I actually felt it being repaired at that moment and then It went dead for a couple months. I mean no feeling at all. after that I have had months of agonizing arousal. only the breathing seems to help. I am sorry for the long post.
Just so you have an idea of where I am at this moment. I have been a Christian my entire life. At times I have applied myself much more than others. At a time that I was in no way obeying God ( in fact I was deep in sin, ) I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. Since then I have become very faithful and have worked to follow Jesus commands. I feel my 3rd eye but it is not open that I can tell. I feel my crown and I see lights around the top of my head when I pray in a state of meditation. I have seen the colors moving like serpents and the spirals. Yesterday I discovered that by attempting the breathing I could feel my Testicle heat up. I also found that for the first time in a long time I could go to bed without this arousal and temptation to relieve it. I have been faithful to stay pure. Being the first day in some time that I have slept deeply I had my first Lucid Dream. It was a man who told me he was going to kill me. I woke. When I fell back to sleep at least 5 men or more where chasing myself and who I perceived as a women. I'm not sure. anyways she was helping me. She pulled me from the ice water at one point. We ended up hiding in a cabin but moments later all the men where in the cabin, we where sitting down waiting our end. then I woke again. To put some of this in perspective. In my past I had a women in my life that was into something i did not understand and was afraid to consider her request/demand. It was something about my birthday. She wanted me to somehow be one with her. At one point she even threatened me. I rejected her by praying to Jesus. Moments before my kundalini awakening I heard her in my mind. She said " I am the one you betrayed. This is your last chance. " right after this happened. I had an explosions of energy go up my spine into my mind. I felt my genitals become erect ( I had erectile disfunction. ) I actually felt it being repaired at that moment and then It went dead for a couple months. I mean no feeling at all. after that I have had months of agonizing arousal. only the breathing seems to help. I am sorry for the long post.