Hey,

Ever since puberty, I have had a very perverse and pervasive envy of women's beauty that has caused sexual degeneration and many fantasies of being female during the sexual act, which is not characterized by traditional homosexual attraction to men yet has resulted in misogyny, disconnection from life, and viewing women as sexual objects.

Any guidance on my sexual abuse, unnatural alteration of my gender during fantasy, and the effect that this has all had on my perspective of women would be appreciated.

Sincerely,
Adam