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  Friday, 16 July 2021
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Hello,

The Abracadabra mantra video is very helpful. I vocalize or mentally chant with the video for15 min. at the very least every day. Sometimes I am able to do more. As an instructor said on a post, "Forty minutes is good. One hour of vocalization is a tentative period." I have very strong sexual appetites and a lot of lustful karma that warrant 49 repetitions of the mantra.

I have a lot of consternation and feelings that I am going to fall if I do not judiciously work with the mantra by increasing the time that I work with the mantra, especially during the calming sign of Cancer.


I do not sense that I am necessarily going to fall anytime soon, but these 7 or so months are the longest that I have remained in chastity (which I personally attribute to the Distance Learning Course ;) ), and there is a very strong sense of impending doom and tragedy regarding my sexual energy, as if I am going to be tested and fail.

I get sick of the mantra if I go beyond 21 or even just 7 repetitions. As with almost every other practice, there needs to be temperance, balance, and relations. Do you have any advice on how to deal with my inability to distinguish whether it is my ego or my conscience that is pushing me toward working with this very sacred mantra more seriously?

Do you have any ideas on how to deepen this practice ergo possibly lengthening the time that I can work with the vocalization?

Maybe there are some supplementary or alternative practices that would help establish control over my sexual appetite? I am daily working with Shaddai and the Vajroli Mudra, meditating on lust and the suffering that it creates, and various other pranayamas. Maybe I need to evolve my perception of what the sexual energy is...

I don't know. This has been a heavy weighing issue for awhile, especially the past 2 weeks.

By the way, I am aware of the great advice about closing our eyes that is mentioned in the response to the Abracadabra testimonial.

Until we can talk about, I am going to do some research on Glorian.org regarding the mantra Abracadabra.

Thank you very much for listening and your work!

Sincerely,
Adam
1 year ago
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#25625
Accepted Answer
Fear is an ego. Caution and prudence is of the soul.

The terror of falling is a defect, whereas the consciousness knows how to be responsible, developing foresight into issues without consternation, anxiety, or distress.

Work with the mantra for however long you can or need. Do not set unreasonable and impractical goals, in that you beat yourself up over not meeting a standard you cannot reach. Be realistic and practice for short sessions, then gradually increase the time as you develop your capacities and skills.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

1 year ago
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#25625
Accepted Answer
Fear is an ego. Caution and prudence is of the soul.

The terror of falling is a defect, whereas the consciousness knows how to be responsible, developing foresight into issues without consternation, anxiety, or distress.

Work with the mantra for however long you can or need. Do not set unreasonable and impractical goals, in that you beat yourself up over not meeting a standard you cannot reach. Be realistic and practice for short sessions, then gradually increase the time as you develop your capacities and skills.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

Ides selected the reply #25625 as the answer for this post — 1 year ago
1 year ago
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That "the terror of falling is a defect" initially seems bizarre and disjointed. Why would an ego not want to fall?

So, I have been reflecting on that question, and suddenly I remembered that I get more lustful and closer to falling when the anxiety, distress, and consternation of falling sets in, making me like a brittle piece of steal in the cold just waiting to snap. The stress can cause us to want to expel that energy.

It is true that there is no rhyme or reason to the ego, but the ego is also very clever, shady, collaborative and perverse,

Thanks for your little clues! :)
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