Kind Regards Everyone,
Hope you are well.
For several years, yet especially the past few months, it is like I have invisible flees. During the waking hours, I will get regular itches, and sometimes they feel like a bug is biting me, unbearably sometimes, and every once in awhile there is actually a bug. It is almost always not a physical bug. Could these be astral parasites?
There is obviously a psychological component to all of this because I am getting really itchy the more that I focus on it.
In the past few months, my Mom has performed occasional instinctual scratches, just like I do when it feels like something is biting me. We have not talked about it, not for any particular reason though. And that brings something else up.
It was really difficult to start writing this post. There is a strong aversion to fixing the issue. Maybe because this might lead to the needles of acupuncturists which an ego fears. Maybe because I enjoy getting angry. I get really angry about it, relatively.
Interestingly, I had a dream of a black magician telling me in this chair that I spend a lot of time in in our living room that she is going to attack me, which they did. So earlier tonight it dawned on me to put some scissors and black mustard seeds down in here. It was a very interesting experience. Nothing huge parted in the sky exactly, but it is seemingly relevant. Would black magicians/the ego really use something as mundane as itchiness against us?
The biggest problem is that I get increasing itchiness as I fall asleep. Especially the past few days, while practicing astral projection I get demanding itchiness. I will lie in bed for many hours trying to go to sleep, but when I get close to the transition, the itchiness flares. It is maddening. Could my ego be doing everything it can to keep me from working on my self?
Falling asleep consciously already has its roadblocks with these "dark shocks" that we have discussed on here. Maybe now that I am making some progress on that, my vital body is acting up. Itches come from the vital body, right?
Hygiene is great, best it has ever been actually. I recently did a sulfur bath and egg cleanse, practice regular cleansing with Sage, Camphor, Cedar, and change out my clothes and sheets appropriately, etc.
Actually, typing this out, I realize that this itchiness when falling asleep consciously did not start until after doing the sulfur bath. Maybe I did something wrong there. I did not use any bubble bath or anything with the sulfur bath, just sulfur, and I rubbed the sulfur into the skin. Surely it is no big deal. Just thinking out loud.
That is about it. This would be a wonderful reason to push myself to get acupuncture. Isn't that where we work on the vital body?
Until we figure something out, I am just going to take some anti-histamines and pass out. Not to advocate laziness or anything. Just want to show the contrast of what I am at and where we can go with the issue.
Have a great weekend, friends at Glorian!
Sincerely,
Adam