When I was listening to Beethoven at my University and studying, and remembering how everyone around me will soon die, as will my own self, and therefore I have no reason to partake in my usual egoic reactions but simply should dwell in the love that Christ knew. As I let this feeling seep into me through the day, I was overwhelmed with the realization of how complete and unending is the suffering of people, fleeting from one impression to another, never knowing peace, calm, gentleness, or love for fellow-men. It struck me that all of our egoic crystallizations are a kind of self-defense mechanism to live unconsciously and not comprehend the unending upwelling of guilt, selfishness, swagger, self love, competition, people have from within. It seems like when people enact their egos I join in with my own tendencies to not see the pain human beings live in, but can pass it over unconsciously by partaking in any number of habits of mind, action, ect. It is undoubtedly outside of the comfort zone to simply be, to listen for the voice of the innermost, to pray unceasingly, and I think it is a sort of leap of faith, but this is how I currently understand self-remembering. At a University, where everyone is absolutely overwhelmed with lust, judgement, general unrest, it is a hard thing to do, but is laughable in the face of what adepts of the past have been through. However can you offer any perspectives on this stage in development? It is so beautiful that we students have access to your instruction it brings tears to my eyes.