Greetings,
Hope you are all doing well (I will come up with another salutation one day
). I have started a retreat at my home, alone, and have never been on a retreat before. It was initiated four days ago via the smart advice of an Instructor in the below cited post. While I had never set a goal for how long to keep the retreat going nor have any particular time constraints, I am very, very satisfied and surprised at having been going super strongly, relatively speaking, for four days, but I also want to keep the retreat going for maybe a week, or even a month, or more.
However, I feel the beginning of the end of this retreat starting. How do I sustain and keep this retreat going?
I know that, if I approach it the right way, I can keep on the retreat and make this the end of the beginning.
It is very possible that my marked success in astral projection during this retreat is actually an obstacle and the cause of my desire to end the retreat because I am so blown away by the experiences, both good ones and bad ones. It is like a surreal shock. Gnosis is so revolutionary that I may not be able to handle the perfidious (to my "beloved" ego) progress being made, as complicated and contradictory as that is.
I am also blatantly challenging and taunting my ego. The wretched thing may be stepping up to the retreat's challenge, ergo filling my mind with ideas like, "You have worked hard enough. Take a break brother." "Spiritual progress can not be made in leaps and bounds. We need to build up to doing long retreats." Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. I know that the fight only gets harder as we progress, yet I do not know how to keep this retreat going ergo making it more impactful.
"I" am actually kind of sick of the retreat by now, to be honest, but part of me wants to keep the retreat going. We could say that it has served its original purpose, which was to curtail my demanding desire to go on a television show bender with "my" favorite show. Thanks again, Almustafa!
So, if you could provide any advice on the issue, I would much appreciate it. We really appreciate your work. Be well, be warm!
Sincerely,
Adam