Hello Everyone
Hope you are well! My dark shocks have never ceased, although I have implemented everything that I know to do, including your advice Almustafa. No disrespect intended.
These dark shocks are keeping me from meditating deeply, astral projecting, having peace.
At least I am not afraid of these "shadows" in my psyche as much.
I have a benign tumor on my pituitary gland, which as we know regulates drowsiness (I think). Hopefully, we can get it removed soon. Is it possible that this health issue is causing dark, very uncomfortable, ultimately unbearable road blocks in my meditation?
Just throwing out ideas.
Also, my body tenses up, and my attention is forced into my body which starts to feel like what I imagine a bit of hell feels like, as I get drowsy during my meditation/conscious sleeping. That is really the "dark shock" that I am referring to. Sometimes I just sit/lie with it, but there is really no point because the more I fight it the stronger it gets, even with prayers, mantras, conjurations, and deeper relaxation. Additionally, I get a craving for food after I jolt out of my meditation. Well, it is more like I want food to be comforted, supplemented, nourished, etc. by the energy that this tenebrous experience takes out of me, and it is stronger when I am moving into deeper meditation, regardless of whether I am meditating in a chair, lying on my side or back, and possibly even when I move deeper into my self-observation during the day. I am going to look for that.
No pun intended.
This part from the Instructor's reply has been taken care of to the best of my knowledge and ability:
As for negative forces, succubi, and entities, learn to protect your psychology, heart, and home:
Just trying to provide as much information as possible.
If I think of anything else, I will include it, but this is about it.
Be well, everyone!
Goodnight