I am trying to eliminate the ego since i was a child without knowing anything of anything , but i am like anyone so eager to see what the other saw , to become confident and sure to be more motivated to do the good things and avoid the bad things even the thoughts . I heard that the prophet Mohammed (according to muslims) meditated in the Cave of Hira for 15 years ! then he reached the truth (which is denying all gods and goddesses except Allah !) so i know it needs patience and insistence and i am ready but i can't find the faith before seeing , to make sure by myself , tell you guys something i knew about Gnosticism from paltalk and that guy
http://www.paltalk.com/people/users/xxx-largeos/photo_showcase.wmt?startAt=4
has been gnostic for about 30 years and predicted the Middle East revolutions in 2010 saying that earthquakes from the the west of Africa to Egypt will happen and he predicts more badness
and he told another man in paltalk about the method of meditation in that video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0rSmxsVHPE
and the vowels and the sexual magic then the other guy which he is my friend now tried it and it worked after a year of (sex magic with his wife , chanting the vowels and some meditation) then one day he got out of his body and saw other beings and jennies and then contacted his kundalini mother or his innermost and healed a woman from a cancer with 80 percent of failure) , I want to be like them , i know that i might be hotheaded but I NEED that to make my inner being or my psyche calm , i want the experience with the work i have read most of the books here which still be good , follow Jesus Christ the adorable savior of the humanity (we are not religious organized !) I want be revealed and the gods tell me do and not do like my friend of Mr largeos , he didn't follow any thing , only Largeos told him the method and how to reach like him the truthes then he lived with himself and knew every thing by himself and he told me to about this interesting website .
Did you know my story now and understand my point ?
Thanks a lot in advance
Regards