i was reading the spiritual diary before i went to sleep and the question did you work on defect today... did you work on anger and lust... and i did not... then i meditated trying to keep conscious while i fell asleep, and i lost consciousness and fell asleep...i had a dream where i almost had a nocturnal emission, but i woke myself up and made sure i didn't. and also in another dream scene i got angry and lost my control. i am more or less aware in my dreams but not in control, and as i was angry while dreaming i thought that it was a test and i failed,
sooo.... my question is how to work on defects during meditation, especially when you don't feel anger? i would very much like to progress.