I know the title is a bit elusive, but ill try my best to explain it.
So - as I study the 22 arcana lecture series, I realize that I dont quite grasp the concepts of 'The inner being' and the 'divine mother' and the concepts of the 10 sephirah in conjunction with the 22 arcana.
I realize that the teachings of gnosis are not founded on theories and concepts, but by direct experience. Yet, what I find is that the more I intellectually stimulate myself with these lectures, the more powerful my abilities of self remembrance becomes.
So getting to the point then, I want to be able to improve my comprehensive ability of these teachings. Id also like insight on why I may not be grasping these concepts? Could it be that direct experience FUELS the intellectual deposit of knowledge? Or is it the other way around, or is it a symbiotic relationship?
The insight I receive from the instructors aids me well, i'd appreciate your support with this concern of mine.