Thursday, 26 December 2019
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Greetings and happy Holidays to you all!

Tonight for the second time I used to search my egos in astral.

First time I saw one (an asian person laying on my sofa in a childhood house). I managed to command him to tell me what kind of ego he was (and he did).

Tonight the problem was as I searched for them (I was conscious enough to know that I am in a "dream" - in astral realm) I could not find any. It seemed that they try to hide.
Although I did notice some kind of a statue and had a thought that it was one of my ego, but soon after I continued to search for more "visible" egos. It seemed everything was somewhat "frozen". Not in a literal sense, but more like egos have been held back.

1. Is it common that when ones passes to the level in which he can start searching for his/her egos in astral that they may give even more "resistance" (like hide harder and etc.)?
2. And also could it be that inner Being may hold them back so you could "take a break" or to master this ability (of fighting/searching egos during sleep, semi-conscious way in astral)?

3. On the other note, is it common to have somewhat erotical relations with your Divine Mother (like she takes a similar form of your physical mother) and kisses you, or appears with naked breasts, or you talk and hug like you are some sort of a husband (I don't know how to explain, but I guess you know what I mean). There is some lust for sure, but it never ends up in a fornication or etc, just happens somewhat in a very sexual/erotical/intimate way?

To note I am working for several months now on some of my defects of lust (I used to fail very often, now from moment to moment it seems I am more able to succeed).

Best Wishes,
Wingless Eagle
2 years ago
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Accepted Answer
1. The ego always resists, just as a starving lion fights to find food the hungrier it gets.

2. Divinity always manages our internal experiences.

Perhaps the statue was giving you a clue as what to work on. Only you can know.

3. Having sexual desires for one’s mother, especially the Divine Mother’s forms in the internal planes, is lust.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

2 years ago
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#20690
Accepted Answer
1. The ego always resists, just as a starving lion fights to find food the hungrier it gets.

2. Divinity always manages our internal experiences.

Perhaps the statue was giving you a clue as what to work on. Only you can know.

3. Having sexual desires for one’s mother, especially the Divine Mother’s forms in the internal planes, is lust.

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

2 years ago
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3. Thing is I do not have such in a vigilant state. It could be that Being/Divine Mother are trying to draw this type of ego from within sub-conscious mind or something like that. Probably yes.

Thank you!

Warm Wishes,
Wingless Eagle
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