Most students go through this process, since what we are learning challenges what we were told formerly. To move towards the divinity that is waiting for you, spend more time in prayer and reflection, and meditate on what you are learning. Reflect on your own experience and how it relates to what you are learning. Analyze what you have been told and measure if you know it is true or not. In this way, you test everything, and you arrive at conclusions based on your own experience, developed in the sanctity of your inner temple, in your heart. This is how we develop real Faith: knowledge from our own experience. Faith dissolves belief away. Faith is real. Belief is an illusion.
It is also important to note that all religions have an important function, which is to prepare us for the deeper teachings. The public, popular religions are like pre-school or kindergarten, in which we are prepared for the more serious work. It would be absurd for a college student to expect their studies would be conducted as they were in pre-school, yet many students have that attitude about spirituality and religion. Gnosis is university level knowledge, so it is not easy, nor is it sugar-coated like pre-school was.
Finally, Gnosis is the heart knowledge of the genuine church, which is not in the physical world. You can learn more about the true church here: