Hey

I've been reading the Perfect matrimony and some others books as well on sex magic.
Samael tells those who practice celibacy are a great candidates for abyss. I'm single and haven't ejaculated for a couple of months.
I'm turning 33 years old next month and never had a wife or a girlfriend in my life.
Find it difficult to translate a method to harness my sex energy that he tells about.
My question is.
If I'm single and never ejaculate the sex energy am I then a celibacy? I'm very confused.
Its difficult to find a girlfriend that knows about sex magic but I'm calm but little bit nervous as Im seeying it clearer that gnosticm is mostly for husband and wife to ptactice. But I'm aware I can do a lot of work until I hopefully marry.

Best regads
Siggi