With regards to the 108 lives, i have been thinking deeply about this subject recently and it really hit me when i read on here in a recent post, that one of the instructors said that if we are here now, then this is almost certainly our last life in this present humanity.
Below that instructors posts is the following statement from Samael Aun Weor :
"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." - Samael Aun Weor
My question is, as a fifty two year old who has led a grim life of crime, fornication, drug and alcohol abuse, violence and who has an ego as big as a large continent, how do i not worry and cultivate the habit of being happy ?
It appears to me that my fate is already sealed as i have so little time to redress the karma i have created, which i fully accept i deserve.
At times i feel like giving up as i see no point in even trying to be a better person when i have such a huge karmic debt to pay and no time to negotiate it.
I try to be happy and be a good person but i am terrified of what is to come.
I can't stop thinking about my little granddaughter being exposed to a great catastrophe that wipes this humanity out and it worries me a great deal.
Do people like me and my wife, Granddaughter have any hope ?