i am struggling very much regarding aggression and violence in my conscious and unconscious dreams.
i don't know how to behave when those circumstance s appear.
i have had multiple " UNconscious " dreams where i didn't act out showing anger or violence when i was attacked.
or cases where i was seduced to act out with anger and violence, and i didn't. after those dreams , i wake up feeling victorious .
When i am " Conscious " in the dream , and the same circumstances appear , and i behave in the same way ,
i wake up feeling like i have failed miserably
In the perfect matrimony Samael states : that the Guardian of the threshold is a hand to hand combat that one should win.
How do i know if it is the guardian ?
Should i fight ? and how do i know if one should fight ?