Born on Christmas

This Christmas Eve that just passed I had a marvelous experience in the astral plane. I was taken up into the clouds and watched my own adult body squirm in an infantile manner on the knee of my Divine Mother while my Innermost sat quietly next to us. Every so often my hand would touch his face. He appeared having eyes all arou d his head and was like a man but with a green lion head or some alien thing somewhat like that.

What are the implications of this experience with regards to my developement?

I was so intensely grateful for this experience and so awestruck by its beauty that I asked her: "who am I to deserve such a beautiful experience?" And she said: "There is no 'I' in a hero; it's 'WE' now"

I'm just curious as to your thought about this as someone experienced in these types of things.

I feel that my innermost is speaking with me and saying some things quite contrary to the teachings here so I hope to remove confusion and clear up the path ahead.

Does this mean that I already posses the astral body since I saw it as a fully grown man?

I can't recall really but I thought it was the beginning here and now lectures where I heard an instructor discussing how some are born with the vehicles and that these types don't need a sexual partner to progress.

Also, if my innermost says to sleep with someone and to fornicate and to manipulate them could it be that it's to build a relationship with them in order to then turn it back to the teachings? Also could it be this voice isn't the innermost but a superior ego? Does the innermost ever encourage fornication?

We realize we're asking many questions here and that it would take a long time to answer justly. Deepest gratitude to the one who takes this on and gives their all.

God bless us all
Thanks for your time