I appreciate you taking time to respond. I will try to reflect on this.
There is another question. When I was led by my own Being in the days I practiced a lot I was fearless.
Now even thinking about coming to that path frightens me. It is like I saw it. I walked that path. I was strong.
But when The Father you will walk alone now, it is really frightening. We are nothing without our Father in Heaven.
How should one overcome such thing, in the case when Father wants you to go alone?
I know I could, but also it is really hard to understand why Father thinks that his son could even remotely be strong enough to walk a bit of this path alone?
I hope you understand what I mean.
It is like I am completely different person than I was when walking the path. And after failure I became different person. A person who has fear to return again.
It is like walking into hurricane and at the same time trying to avoid being hit by a thunder.
Thank you,
And best wishes and nice holidays to you.

Whenever I feel a lack of strength, I like to reflect on the following piece while meditating more diligently...