Friday, 21 December 2018
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Hello instructors,
Today, when sleeping I saw myself with black wings and horns. It is just sad.
My whole life feels like a waste.
I know who I am and also the White Lodge knows.
I struggled a lot. It seemed that light is so near, but in the end I failed.
I feel like this life of mine is just to pay karma. And that is all.
Should I live simple life from moment to moment to pay karma and wait for next life?
Even though I am fallen I have never worked with Black Lodge.
Well, you know how it is.
I know meditate work on ego and so on.
But it is hard. It is really hard when you get help, but nearly impossible when karma forbids any for of help.
Any suggestions?
Thank you!
Have a nice Christmas!
3 years ago
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#17686
Accepted Answer
“When an inferior law is transcended by a superior law, the superior law washes away the inferior law.”

Meditate on this:

"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." - Samael Aun Weor

3 years ago
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#17686
Accepted Answer
“When an inferior law is transcended by a superior law, the superior law washes away the inferior law.”

Meditate on this:

"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." - Samael Aun Weor

3 years ago
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#17694
I appreciate you taking time to respond. I will try to reflect on this.
There is another question. When I was led by my own Being in the days I practiced a lot I was fearless.
Now even thinking about coming to that path frightens me. It is like I saw it. I walked that path. I was strong.
But when The Father you will walk alone now, it is really frightening. We are nothing without our Father in Heaven.
How should one overcome such thing, in the case when Father wants you to go alone?
I know I could, but also it is really hard to understand why Father thinks that his son could even remotely be strong enough to walk a bit of this path alone?
I hope you understand what I mean.
It is like I am completely different person than I was when walking the path. And after failure I became different person. A person who has fear to return again.
It is like walking into hurricane and at the same time trying to avoid being hit by a thunder.
Thank you,
And best wishes and nice holidays to you.
3 years ago
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#17726
Whenever I feel a lack of strength, I like to reflect on the following piece while meditating more diligently...

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

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