Sunday, 16 December 2018
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Hello again. I've been thinking about this for a couple days. I'm a 25 years old male and I never had a real relationship. I lost my virginity at 20 and probably I gained a significant amount of bad karma till this year. I used to be sexually deviant and I decided to straighten myself out just like a recovering alcoholic. Even before I found here.
Master Samael says that one cannot activate his solar bodies and awaken his consciousness without using Sexual Magic. I never had a girlfriend, in fact I never even had sex without paying for it. I always "almost" had relationships with women but all of them ended before they even started. I spent many of my years by loving someone who didn't love me back, I was unable to like women who liked me. And when feelings were mutual, something always came up, even in forms of self-sabotage. People say it might be related to past lives or bad karma. I tried to clear those problems, but improvements are minor.
So what if it's my destiny to be alone? I want spiritual progress, I want to be free of suffering, I want to be closer to God. Are those really impossible without having a wife? I've closed myself to deviant forms of sexuality (including masturbation) and women who'd do that. I always try to meet new people to see if I can find someone for me. But what if I can't and what if I have to stay celibate till the end of my lifetime? To be honest I want to be with someone, I'm not saying that I'm an advanced person who has no interest in anything but spirituality. I want to experience a loving relationship maybe as much as I want liberation from suffering. How do I know if I'm not meant for happiness in that aspect of my life, if it's really like that? Or what should I do?
Master Samael says that one cannot activate his solar bodies and awaken his consciousness without using Sexual Magic. I never had a girlfriend, in fact I never even had sex without paying for it. I always "almost" had relationships with women but all of them ended before they even started. I spent many of my years by loving someone who didn't love me back, I was unable to like women who liked me. And when feelings were mutual, something always came up, even in forms of self-sabotage. People say it might be related to past lives or bad karma. I tried to clear those problems, but improvements are minor.
So what if it's my destiny to be alone? I want spiritual progress, I want to be free of suffering, I want to be closer to God. Are those really impossible without having a wife? I've closed myself to deviant forms of sexuality (including masturbation) and women who'd do that. I always try to meet new people to see if I can find someone for me. But what if I can't and what if I have to stay celibate till the end of my lifetime? To be honest I want to be with someone, I'm not saying that I'm an advanced person who has no interest in anything but spirituality. I want to experience a loving relationship maybe as much as I want liberation from suffering. How do I know if I'm not meant for happiness in that aspect of my life, if it's really like that? Or what should I do?
Accepted Answer
“Women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity are for women of purity.” -Qur’an 24:26
“But let them who find not a suitable partner abstain [from sexual relations] until Allah enriches them from His bounty.” -Qur’an 24:33
Enter the minor mysteries while you are single, so that through hard work, divinity will bring you to your Gnostic partner and you can enter the major mysteries!
“But let them who find not a suitable partner abstain [from sexual relations] until Allah enriches them from His bounty.” -Qur’an 24:33
Enter the minor mysteries while you are single, so that through hard work, divinity will bring you to your Gnostic partner and you can enter the major mysteries!
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
Accepted Answer
“Women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity are for women of purity.” -Qur’an 24:26
“But let them who find not a suitable partner abstain [from sexual relations] until Allah enriches them from His bounty.” -Qur’an 24:33
Enter the minor mysteries while you are single, so that through hard work, divinity will bring you to your Gnostic partner and you can enter the major mysteries!
“But let them who find not a suitable partner abstain [from sexual relations] until Allah enriches them from His bounty.” -Qur’an 24:33
Enter the minor mysteries while you are single, so that through hard work, divinity will bring you to your Gnostic partner and you can enter the major mysteries!
For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami
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