For some reason, I always come back to the subject of sensation. I understand that it can be illusory and that one can become addicted to "mystical sensations" just as easy as a drug addict is addicted to the sensation manifested by that drug. However, it is undeniable that physical sensations exist because of cause and effect. For example, I cut my finger, therefore I feel pain. Do I cut my finger again? It is certain that I will be much more careful in the future because pain hurts.
Whenever I query about this subject, I feel that the response is heavily opposed to acknowledging any form of sensation. This to me, seems a little extreme. One cannot deny the helpfulness of comprehending a sensation whether it be from the pain of a cut finger or an unfamiliar physical manifestation emerging in ones spiritual practices.
Is it not appropriate that we must learn to comprehend all things and not brush sensations off as a distraction keeping us anchored to the physical? If I ignored the pain of cutting my finger, my fingers would not work very well and functioning hands are really important. We are taught to comprehend emotional pain and pleasure that arrive in our heart during meditation. Why then should we not try to comprehend sensations that manifest in other areas of our body? If we truly comprehend the sensation of an orgasm, it will eventually cease to feel good to us but rather painful, like a cut on the finger. Not physically of course, but spiritually.
That being said, it is entirely possible that I have not fully comprehended the responses that I have received from the instructors on this matter. So if that is the case, I sincerely apologize and will seek repentance of that. If I have comprehended it, and it is the position of the instructors that sensation is "taboo." I feel this is a matter that should be addressed with less extreme opposition. Or at least a little more clarity for us who's mind has been degraded from too many past bad habits.
As always, I am so very grateful of the gifts which are available to myself and humanity through your dedication and sacrifice. I owe a great debt to the instructors for the help they have given me. It is for this reason I feel compelled to speak openly and honestly about this particular struggle of mine.
Sincerest blessings.
M.O.