I have been reading the books of judas, book of truth, book of wisdom, and others. I have been interested in the story of judas helping christ and how he came back for eleven days to teach after his death in the form of light. How important the spirit and not the body is. I am confused though, I have read the inner being and connected to a higher source also. They seem to be similar. I am interested in learning but don't know where to start.