Thursday, 23 August 2018
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Dear Instructors.

I am sincerely in need of your help. I am hoping that you can help based on your past experiences with this same matter that I have.

•I practice sexual magic regularly which has been refined a great deal. Thanks to meditation my mind reminds still, fully concentrated on the energy rising up.
•I also practice ham-sah transmutation every morning and every night before sleep along with reciting the conjugation of Bellilin 3 times and ask the divine mother for protection while I sleep.
•Mediate 2-3 hours everyday.
•I work in the fitness industry so nutrition isn’t a problem and I do not eat pork.
•Physical activity also isn’t a problem.
•I do not watch tv or listen to radio.
•I use the internet for access to spiritual literature.
•I do not lust over other women. But I am always aware of the 3 brains regardless.
•I have chipped away at the defects of the ego of lust a great deal.

My problem is why am I still being attacked in my sleep by wet dreams. Why is it that I am involuntarily losing sexual energy, especially when I am performing sexual magic along with Ham-Sah every night, I thought this would dry up the semen resulting in no physical loss. I know I am doing transmutation right because I can feel the energy rise up my spine, and the result leaves an inner heat radiating in my body. When I loose the energy through wet dreams I can feel the inner fire and heat diminishing. I feel like I am taking two steps forward and one step backwards, moving nowhere fast on the path.
If it helps; When I have wet dreams it is never with anyone else but with my partner. So I don’t understand what I am doing wrong. It would be more clear that if the dream was with someone else then I could say I am obviously lusting over other women, but this isn’t the case.

I know that you often provide the advice of “mediate on it” but what exactly am I suppose to mediate on, the dream itself? Which, I should add, was basically me and my partner about to practice alchemy, but the fact everything in the astral is more sensitive, I lost my energy in the dream before I even started the act. (I also know that alchemy in the astral is for masters only). Will these attacks in my dreams eventually go away or are they always a treat even further along the path?

I would greatly appreciate your help and time that you could give to me, a wretched sinner of the Holy Spirit trying to find his way back to the light.
3 years ago
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#16986
Accepted Answer
Nocturnal pollutions are caused by lust. If one is not aware of where, how, and why lust is acting in the physical plane, this indicates one is asleep and that more comprehension is needed.

Comprehension first begins by seeing where lust manifests, how, and why, what its nutrition (impressions) is, what thoughts, feelings, and impulses constitute the defect, etc.

Meditation deepens when we have first seen such lustful egos in action and are working to comprehend such errors based on direct observation. If we do not see where such egos come from or how they manifest in daily life, it means we need to strengthen our vigilance and self-observation.

Do not believe that lust is gone because you don't see it! That is a sophism of distraction. Instead, intensify your observation and you will catch that unmistakable flavor of temptation when it arrives in your three brains, in response to ordeals in the physical plane (which will then transfer over into the astral plane).

The more restraint we show in our physical body through self-observation and comprehension, such self-restraint will then transfer over into the dream state when one is more vulnerable.

If you have a pollution, transmute your energies and meditate on the dream, what you remember, what caused the fall, etc. This takes tremendous super-efforts, but is essential if one suffers a fall.

Nocturnal pollutions end when the egos of pollutions are comprehended and annihilated.

"With patience possess ye your souls."

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

3 years ago
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#16986
Accepted Answer
Nocturnal pollutions are caused by lust. If one is not aware of where, how, and why lust is acting in the physical plane, this indicates one is asleep and that more comprehension is needed.

Comprehension first begins by seeing where lust manifests, how, and why, what its nutrition (impressions) is, what thoughts, feelings, and impulses constitute the defect, etc.

Meditation deepens when we have first seen such lustful egos in action and are working to comprehend such errors based on direct observation. If we do not see where such egos come from or how they manifest in daily life, it means we need to strengthen our vigilance and self-observation.

Do not believe that lust is gone because you don't see it! That is a sophism of distraction. Instead, intensify your observation and you will catch that unmistakable flavor of temptation when it arrives in your three brains, in response to ordeals in the physical plane (which will then transfer over into the astral plane).

The more restraint we show in our physical body through self-observation and comprehension, such self-restraint will then transfer over into the dream state when one is more vulnerable.

If you have a pollution, transmute your energies and meditate on the dream, what you remember, what caused the fall, etc. This takes tremendous super-efforts, but is essential if one suffers a fall.

Nocturnal pollutions end when the egos of pollutions are comprehended and annihilated.

"With patience possess ye your souls."

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

3 years ago
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#16989
Wow, thank you so much Almustafa! I will do as you advised!
3 years ago
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#17008
Is it correct, a defect like lust is an aggregate consisting of multiple particles? For example, if I work on and destroy my lust for person A, there is still lust for person B, C, etc.?

Further more, when we encounter lust in us, is there a way to differentiate between an active ego and an astral larvae? Does it even make a difference?
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