Thank you for your reply. I am new to the path and although things are progressing well, especially since the surgery, I am worried that if I dont follow the Drs orders it wont heal properly. I comprehend that this worrying is most likely my egos fighting against me. It was a very expensive and long recovery to have to go through it again later it i can avoid it. I would rather keep my chastity but can't decide if the short time of breaking it is beneficial to the long term outcome of having my sexual energy restored. I have been trying to get guidance during meditation but haven't reached that level yet. When you say ask my divine mother for healing when I transmute would this be during pranayama or during meditation or both? I unfortunately haven't been able to work with alchemy due to my wifes feelings towards gnosis so I'm currently working with pranayama. I'm sure I will have more questions about this topic later depending on how much I can resolve through meditation. I have heard on multiple lectures that the only way to repair the sexual organs after a vascectomy is to get it reversed. If it is possible to keep the tubes open with the help of my divine mother would it also be possible to repair them without surgery with enough prayer and meditation or does the physical body need to be repaired first to receive help. Thanks again for all your help I will continue working on looking for the answers within.