Interesting, the answer Master Samael Aun Weor has for this. I came to the conclusion recently that I have not fully comprehended the first experience, and thus I need to meditate on it in order to understand my current condition. Thankfully, when we stop to listen to our own Innermost and take it heart, there is always a confirmation if we are willing to recognize it. This response, I am taking as my confirmation. Thank you for taking the time to help me. Sometimes a nod from those we surround ourselves by is a bigger help than a lecture or study.
May Iod-Havah bless you and guard you
May Iod-Havah make His face shed light upon you and be gracious unto you
May Iod-Havah lift up His face unto you and give you peace