Tuesday, 08 May 2018
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Hello dear instructors! Without going into too much detail about the personal details of my situation, I feel like I have been digging myself into a hole. I try to always stay aware and watchful over my mind, but I feel as if I may be empowering egos that watch over my mind, instead of my consciousness. What I mean is, I try to be watchful and to be quiet and be attentive to my mind throughout the day, but in each case I somehow empower an ego to think about my other egos, digging myself into a hole, in which I can't find a mental spot to be somewhat 'free' from the ego to watch. I can't be still and watch, an ego takes that place. This is very troubling. I know that one can not truly meditate without developing concentration, and this problem is stopping me from developing any straight concentration.

Adding on to this, I try to take control of my negative habits, and change hate into love, but again I feel like I am only empowering another ego that comes and goes, and clearly has its own 'personality' and way of acting. I know that our true selves are naturally loving, chaste, etc, but it makes me wonder, in the fight against the ego, have I already failed? Have I built myself an unfortunate situation where my mind is completely enveloped in ego, and there is no way out? How do I progress if there is no free consciousness? To reiterate, I cannot seem to find a space in my mind where I am ever still, leading to lack of concentration, etc. Again, this is very troubling. Do you have any advice so that I may overcome this? Thank you in advance.
4 years ago
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#16416
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You need to meditate every day on what you experienced that day, studying your behaviors in meditation. There is no other way to deal with this. It helps to slowly, daily study the books related to this.

"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." - Samael Aun Weor

4 years ago
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#16416
Accepted Answer
You need to meditate every day on what you experienced that day, studying your behaviors in meditation. There is no other way to deal with this. It helps to slowly, daily study the books related to this.

"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." - Samael Aun Weor

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