I'm sick of my current life. It's mostly my mindset and actions. I spent most of my time wasting time playing video games and watching pornography.. and now I want to change
Leaving the past in the past.
I've been meditation with a 5 min timer the past few days and it's sort of hard now but a while ago, I was doing 15 minutes so I'm taking it day by day.
On top of that I quit my job after two years, I'm a hard worker but I left because I was treated unfairly.
I'm hoping to find myself, find my passion and look for another job. I applied at other retail store today but who knows if I'll ever get a call. I may work for a few months then probably join the military: Air force/Navy.
I remember reading something about people look outside for things, such as materialistic things for happiness but you'll only find it inside (meditation)
If I want to pray for happiness, support and love. How do I know if I'm doing it right? What do I say?