Over the past couple of days I have made a conscious effort to relax and meditate — watching my thoughts and relaxing deeper and deeper — and to observe myself when not meditating. I have tried different approaches to meditation over the years but yesterday I decided to throw all these approaches away and start fresh.
Today I went about my routine as usual but something felt different.
I am normally a very indoors type of person but today, for no reason, I felt like sitting outside in the sun. It didn't feel forced, it just happened. Then later in the day I didn't feel "like myself." It was a certain uneasiness, not like anxiety but a certain strangeness infused my sense of self. I usually have depressed and dreary thoughts but today it was like returning to a time when I was happier.
Are these perceptions normal when we begin these studies? I feel uneasy and bizarre but also a little elated, and eager to meditate. It was as if I had been meditating the wrong way for years.
Today I went about my routine as usual but something felt different.
I am normally a very indoors type of person but today, for no reason, I felt like sitting outside in the sun. It didn't feel forced, it just happened. Then later in the day I didn't feel "like myself." It was a certain uneasiness, not like anxiety but a certain strangeness infused my sense of self. I usually have depressed and dreary thoughts but today it was like returning to a time when I was happier.
Are these perceptions normal when we begin these studies? I feel uneasy and bizarre but also a little elated, and eager to meditate. It was as if I had been meditating the wrong way for years.