Some times I am afraid of killing my ego. Then I think of Arjuna, who was hesitating to kill his ''family'', but as the instructor says is a lecture, Arjuna could speak face to face with Krishna, who inspired him, when he showed him his real form, which was multidimensional. So if I achieve to enter in deep mediation and speak to Christ, our Lord, I confident, that I will get the inspiration I need. However, until now, I have no progress. I do not practice. Maybe I should find out, what keeps me from practicing and developing my meditation skills.

Now, Samael Aun Weor comes to my mind, explaining the practice of astral projection, when saying:

It´s a matter of doing, not thinking

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I am also afraid, that I will not succeed, when I think what Krishna says:

Out of many thousands among men, one may endeavor for perfection, and of those who have achieved perfection, hardly one knows Me in truth.

Chapter 7, Verse 3.