Hello everyone,
I have two health issues which I want to understand and deal with. I am aware that I will need a lot of meditation and inner work in order to find ultimate solutions. Yet, I hope to find additional information from you, so that I have a broader foundation to start from.
The first issue is my appendix. When I was six, my appendix inflamed, burst and have been removed. A lot of pain was involved, clearly it must have been karmic. According to the lecture "The five Causes of Illness" the appendix is where James the Lesser does his work and it is related to the immune system. My first question is:
1) What would be the right way to accept this kind of Karma? How can I show James the Lesser my respect and will to improve?
Following my intuition, I've dropped alcohol, sugars, fast food and I avoid pork as much as I can, I am practicing the Tibetan Rites of Rejuvenation and I perpetually work on filtering out abusive activities regarding my three brains.
The second issue is a mixture of light epilepsy and somnambulism. The symptoms also started in my childhood and they usually involve: subtle muscle twitches, speaking during sleep and sometimes even standing up or walking. During stressful times all symptoms are becoming stronger and during the first one/two hours of sleep I use to wake up screaming, saying things like "Don't kill me, yet!". At the same time, when attempting Astral Projections, I have the feeling of being locked into my body (I need to investigate more here, but I have the feeling, that it is related). So generally, I feel as if I am being dragged into Klipoth at the beginning of my sleep and that only later during the night, my dreams get normal again.
Besides my practice on ethics, Tibetan Rites, meditation and the three factors death, birth and sacrifice, I also have a dream journal. Yet, I am currently not able to remember those nightmares during the first one/two hours of sleep. Otherwise I can remember several dreams which occur later during the night. I've read in the lectures and other threads that epilepsy is caused by being a medium in a past live. My second question is:
2) What could be the Karma related to the somnambulism/nightmares (is it related to being a medium)? How can I deal with this Karma correctly (besides Dream Yoga, maybe something from Esoteric Medicine)?
Thank you for your time and your insight