Of course it matters. It is necessary to fight to retain the energy.
I did not say the consequences are the same. If you willingly let the energy go — that is, you do not fight the loss — the consequences are much worse.
You are working on changing a behavior that was many centuries in the making. Do not expect it will be easy to quick to change. Be patient with yourself, but also press ahead.
The most important thing is to meditate on what caused the event, no matter what dimension it originated from. The causes are psychological, so it is essential to recognize and comprehend them, so the problem will not be repeated.
You can only discover this through
meditation. Self-observation, transformation of impressions, etc is only step one of gathering data. Without comprehension in meditation, there will be no progress, and instead of the energy liberating the consciousness, it traps it in fanaticism, pride, etc.