Hello Dear Instructros.
I have some issues related with sexuality, liucifer fire etc. etc.. i will try to tell in detail and wait with faith for your response.
1 Being alone student i was working with lucifer fire transmuting desire to spiritual energy, aquiring more objective reasoning, more understanding, more deeply conquering liucifer. Sometimes, when higher tempation arises, with lot of willpower, understanding, imigination, comprehensioni i was able to sense my inner spirit. sense-desire transmute to sense-spirit.
3. I Was using energy to understand functionism of ego.
2 But something mightily changes after one succesful temptation and internal meditation ( OM mantra ). (Lot Of Light has been absorbed) and after i while i started to feel my sexual organs very sensitivily,i was walking in street and with all my love and might i shouted internaly God Enlight Me, and i seen Golden Lighting internaly. i understood that spirit conquered my matter, even if i never practiced sexual magic. Its correct stated that my soul was fussed with my innermost ?
Because i started consciously receive lot of knowledge, lot of understanding, lot of burning ocean if you know what i mean.
Ego become very easily to comprohend, all theories was transcendent, light, love, strenght filled my being, with moment to moment.
I Become Fire. Fire and was burning inside me. When i Absorbed Light, Very Vivid Perception of Spirit happened. But my body can hold this for long.
Because this fire was unstoppable. Also i remembered my past live.
I Become Turyia immediatly. Ardent Conciuosness. Of course i cant hold this forever, so i beg spirit to leave me, and it happend.
But after this something changed, i started to feel burning liucifer fire inside my sexual organs sometimes, dependetly on situations.
Also i feel internaly burning fire in my feets. Like I walking on fire. Also lot of understanding, love, more objective perception.
1. What you can say about this, what really changed ? do i aquired other degree of objective reasoning
or i penetrated deeper in dantes inferno ? or my inner spirit, atman, being just enlighted me soul ?
What Golden Lighting mean ? What Internalt senstitivy in sexual organs and lucifer fire inside sexual organs means ?