This may sound foolish or egoistic, but
I'm really not sure if I love humanity enough, at this point, to believe I am motivated to serve, sacrifice, dedicate myself wholly to the well-being of others or humanity.
I would like to be ultimately guided by divine will and realise my being but I just don't feel that level of compassion for humanity as a whole.
I also realise that, at this point, I struggle to comprehend the oneness of us, and am not always aware of / looking for the divine in others or myself.
But it worries me. I don't know what this means as I begin on the path.