As we all know, praxis often differs greatly from theory, and what one has established so far in understanding (of mind and soul) can be turned head first into hell when touched by a foreign spirit. Such will not be known until experienced.
Given the case one has been in these teachings for a while and then meets a master. The master is not Gnostic, however, seems to be intriguingly masterful. The master happens to have a crush on one and talks a lot about unconditional love, and teaches rituals meant to connect with the inner Self and the Divine. One, too, starts loving that master not only platonically but romantically and, in the course of time, engages to the fullest – believing that there is a deep spiritual and soul connection, in other words: the soul mate.
Then the master turns out to be a black magician … or what is called “grey” which is to connect light and darkness. One has not recognized this orientation in time.
Since beforehand one had asked the Divine Mother for an ordeal to proof oneself and to move on in the path, so the ordeal came. While in the ordeal, one has relied on divine guidance, but despite all prudence one has failed. This means that one became convinced where one should have been convincing. One has been decapitated and then crowned anew by the master, but not for what one formerly thought was holy and right. One recognizes this fact not until it is too late when already engaged mentally, emotionally and sexually. One is thus “married before God” as you would say, with a black magician.
What would be your remedy? How to go on living with such a dilemma or how to get out of it? If one has united in heart, mind, soul and body to someone, isn’t one to be faithful and true? And wouldn’t this in turn lead to sexual energy being used for black purposes … or at least grey?
If you happen to know how to exit the game … let me know. But most likely you will say: Bear your Karma with humility. The one typing this cannot think of another option. One isn’t even sure who is asking.
Connection to Innermost seems to be cut off now.
In theory, everything seems to be clear. But reality is different. So this is a totally practical question. Please answer practically if possible.
Given the case one has been in these teachings for a while and then meets a master. The master is not Gnostic, however, seems to be intriguingly masterful. The master happens to have a crush on one and talks a lot about unconditional love, and teaches rituals meant to connect with the inner Self and the Divine. One, too, starts loving that master not only platonically but romantically and, in the course of time, engages to the fullest – believing that there is a deep spiritual and soul connection, in other words: the soul mate.
Then the master turns out to be a black magician … or what is called “grey” which is to connect light and darkness. One has not recognized this orientation in time.
Since beforehand one had asked the Divine Mother for an ordeal to proof oneself and to move on in the path, so the ordeal came. While in the ordeal, one has relied on divine guidance, but despite all prudence one has failed. This means that one became convinced where one should have been convincing. One has been decapitated and then crowned anew by the master, but not for what one formerly thought was holy and right. One recognizes this fact not until it is too late when already engaged mentally, emotionally and sexually. One is thus “married before God” as you would say, with a black magician.
What would be your remedy? How to go on living with such a dilemma or how to get out of it? If one has united in heart, mind, soul and body to someone, isn’t one to be faithful and true? And wouldn’t this in turn lead to sexual energy being used for black purposes … or at least grey?
If you happen to know how to exit the game … let me know. But most likely you will say: Bear your Karma with humility. The one typing this cannot think of another option. One isn’t even sure who is asking.
Connection to Innermost seems to be cut off now.
In theory, everything seems to be clear. But reality is different. So this is a totally practical question. Please answer practically if possible.