Hello instructors! I was just wondering if there was any way to get more specific direction for this one, here. I have many questions. I don't want to clog up the forum with personal questions and predicaments, of which this will be the last. I also gather, from prior seeking in the Hindu Advaita and Hindu general paths, that a teacher will be provided when the consciousness is ready, so I don't really know if I should expect anything from posting this. I am relatively new to the path of self-realization. I have not given up my vices or myself as yet; in fact, I still willingly enjoy them from time to time. And what most makes this post seem premature is that I have only very recently engaged in a serious effort to (effortlessly) self-observe, full-time. Needless to say, because of this effort, I am persistently struggling to stay in the self, although the attention and identification go out, very much. It currently feels more like I am struggling to come back to the self, again and again, for it has already gone out, into becoming, into the ego. And I am not even succeeding all the time, although I trust and feel that diligence will breed more diligence. I am very sorry to clutter the forum with this personal stuff. If there is a way that one of you could address me directly or privately, just to say yes, here, or no, stop this, do that, I would be very grateful; I would not mind you deleting this post, if you deem it unhelpful to others, as I understand it may go against the posting rules. Thank you so much for being here.