i want help, not about books and words, but about experience. one can not understand much less answer such questions as i have without experience.
while my eyes are blinded by the light, i embrace the paradoxical reality i have found.
I am either in the house or when i am put out, i stand knocking at the door because i can not stand this place of filth (the ego.)
who knows what i am seeing and can help me understand?
I have found sustenance from another realm. my body is being built by trial and error. some things are inanimate, some are sweet but poisonous, some are bitter and nutritious.
I am looking for help in understanding the world i am entering into. and anyone who is there, knows how i came to this place and what i mean when i say "I."
all our lives, we have no say in the influences that shape ourselves. but now it seems i can choose who i share influences with others. I am a limb, and i am whole, but disconnected.
here i find a lot of mans words, it is the ramas. I search for the logos.
the logos of man in syntactical, it is logical words. The logos of the creator is the whole of creation, it can never be in words. when the logos was spoken, existence is the words.
who can share the logos?
who can explain what i read in reality, not what i read in a book?
If anyone have eyes to see and ears to hear, i pray they have mouths to speak.
Don't be afraid of lifting up self. who is there to fear? if in teaching me, you become boastful in your heart, it is the impurities rising to the top. that is a matter to be thankful in.