Wednesday, 13 January 2016
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i realised the answer to an earlier question, im trying to connect to others that can relate to me.
I have lots of distress over suffering around me and it gets to where i spend all my time searching for how i can help.
The urge to connect to others on the path is overwhelming sometimes because that's where i need to serve, but it is usually so hard to get around pride, hard to know what to say, where to start.

I want to serve.
i've entered the stream. i am the reflection of everyone i have ever met.
I see the fields are ready, i want to help in the harvest.

i've recently learned that where i am is considered rare, but i've searched and i don't see it as true.
i've known many like me, who if they had a chance, they would have annulled themselves before the creator.
it's the treasure in the field, christ was making a guarantee that there is a treasure that when it is found, one WILL sell all they own to buy the field.

I see myself in others, crying out for the truth, begging to me to explain that the truth is within.
after awakening, i diverted much of my personal energy to developing compassion. changing my sorrow to be for the suffering of others for example, but now it has grown much faster than i expected.

this is the direction i must go. i start here, in asking your advice on how else i can serve the most good.
i don't like asking this publicly because it seems like it may be off putting, but fear does not produce life.

thank you,
jesse
6 years ago
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#11055
Study and meditate on this course, especially the lecture "Service and Sacrifice."

For thirty years I sought God. But when I looked carefully I found that in reality God was the seeker and I the sought. -Bayazid al-Bastami

6 years ago
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#11201
thank you.
this is no small matter, sacrifice IS the stream, so the idea is cherished and hated.
the feeling i have is like starving, the body im building is sometimes starving.

but the compulstions i have to sustain spiritual energy is the ego trying to cling, my mind lies and says: "there is another (better) place and time for the work." meaning that i am an individual, and there is a place and time when the infinite can not be accessed (that i extend the awakening from below).

self depends on seeing reality in such a way that causes itself to arise in the next moment.

a lie is perpetuated, but the truth perpetuates.
(whatever is dependent is a lie, namely: self)
so it is not for me (self) to choose the path, but to follow.

there is never a time when i can not practice sacrifice.
desire, it comes as an angel of light.
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